Virgo Full Moon: I Am Not In My Body, My Body Is In Me

We should realize in a vivid & revolutionary sense that we are not in our bodies but our bodies are in us.
~ Ruth St. Denis

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own.
~ 1 Corinthians 6:19

What a powerful transition we sat with this past weekend, The Full Moon in Virgo yesterday morning was both the last Full Moon of the
Zodiac Year as well as the height of such an auspicious Lunar cycle built on that powerful Solar Eclipse New Moon of a few weeks ago.

Virgo is an interesting sign with a lot of bad press & contradictory implications. Known as excessively detail oriented  & even rigid at times, Virgo is the most disciplined & pure of all the signs, honest to a fault & accountable.

The Virgo Moon is the Virgin, this is clear.

There is a certain level of ecstasy intact in the Virgin. Often a young or younger woman, the Virgin has no filter between her & God. Both her prayers & her body are complete unto herself. She is a vessel for the Beloved. There is no distraction.

We can only be so lucky at this hectic time on the planet ~ to have no distraction in our search for God.

It seems like every minute there is a crisis, every minute a reason to doubt, so much pressure, so much free fall ~ but perhaps this weekend we got a glimpse of the divine opening, the detox, the god filter.

Getting clean.

It’s a possibility.

If only for a heartbeat, to shine the way.

I know you know this, but let me place the divine reminder  in your hand:

Nothing happens by accident.

No matter how awkward, surprising or uncomfortable.

I spent the weekend in ceremony in a room that I have spent much time in. Because of my role in the events held in this room, I usually sit in the same spot, but in a series of (Of course) perfect synchronous events, not the least of which my oft mentioned change of travel plans in the last month, I ended up sitting on the opposite side of the room.

Sitting directly above my usual seat  was a painting that I had only glanced at before. In this situation, the evening/morning of the Virgo Full Moon I had the opportunity to stare into it continuously.

It was a painting of gold, 3 feet wide with a dove or Holy Spirit at the center. To one side was a bald eagle, to the other was a raven.

In the weeks leading up to this ceremony, I had been in almost a perpetual state of alarm, nothing I couldn’t handle, but severely uncomfortable.

I thought that the only way through would be a breakdown or breakthrough that would be chaotic & disassembling, something that would take up a lot of room, disturb other people.

Instead, as I stared up into this painting I became more & more clear,
more simple, less dramatic. There were moments that I thought  nothing was happening.

I was patient & suddenly it did not matter what I was waiting for.

I had all the time in the world because I was all the time in the world.

This is Virgo. This is the Virgin state. This is the clear field before the activation of the seed that begins in Aries & on The Vernal Equinox (March 20).

This is the letting go. We can do this.

Antidotes For The Pisces New Moon Eclipse Brouhaha (Bruja Smile)

“There is no ladder to ascend” ~ The Path

“The glass is, & was, always full” ~ Sandra Walter

“You don’t need to do everything. Do what calls your heart; effective action comes from love. It is unstoppable, & it is enough” ~ Joanna Macy

Welcome to the maelstrom my beauties,

I hope it is helpful for all of you that I continue to send these messages because sometimes it takes all I’ve got to sit down & focus enough to send them. However I do love myself enough to keep my center & I know that when I am of service everything sits a little bit clearer.

So here we are.

My last email laid out a lot of the groundwork for this rowdy weekend of cosmic wrestling. If there is someone you would rather NOT have it out with, I recommend you either stay clear or bring in some super hero mediation support OR do both, pray hard, call in some angels & go for it.

This period of Destabilization (not just this weekend but these last few years & the next one coming) has been predicted for literally eons. The current US president is just a symptom of loss of equilibrium that began generations ago.

The turbulence of the next few days should be mostly internal
however many of us have experienced or may experience sudden redirection of our path, disruption in what we thought was constant & true, the veil lifting on things that we had long stored away as finished. Surprise.

This should be celebrated. I’m going to show you how.

Our entire physical universe is illusory in nature, a holographic projection of light, including our bodies. This is how we connect to the universe & to the divine streams of energy that bring life to all of nature’s gorgeousness & that mysteriously move us to take action, over & over again, in spite of all difficulties, to make art, make war, make money, make trouble, make love.

As embodied beings, as we are moved to Make over & over again. Although we may be exquisitely aware of this sexy & divine light consciousness that runs through us, we also experience with our seemingly reliable senses, the differences between things, the hard edges, the separation.

It is our raison d’être to face this (or not) everyday. This weekend’s cluster fuck of  frustration & inspiration feels like the straw that broke the camel’s back. WTF. This is ridiculous. Why bother. I.Just.Can’t.

I am here to tell you it can be so easy. It was never meant to be hard.

The main solution for the coming days is a combination of laying low (yep, resting), removing expectations in a very specific & generous way, being kind to one another,  staying open AND feeling each cell of your body as a star.

Fill with light.

It’s not a cliche and you don’t need to have some radical epiphany or enlightenment, no key card to an exclusive club to do this.

You are meant to be fully efficient with love.

You are meant to be open & receive everything you need to know,
to be completely successful on your path.

Don’t give up now. Just try again. Use a tiny bit more effort.
Release yourself. Experience who you are. Do not edit or try to abandon who you are.

The absolute, most important thing is that you keep the way clear.

Just like sweeping the floor. Do what you can. Little by little.

Subtle Activism. Pray.

Here is some good limpia medicine for you that takes practically no effort:

This piece of sound healing has helped me through the extreme dreaming & sensory disruptions of the last few weeks. It is channeled by Tom Kenyon. whose generous & visionary work
is absolutely necessary if you are interested in exploring the noosphere & the 5th Dimension. Also for healing up your nervous system if you just can’t help it & you are already there & feeling the shocks to your system.

You can play it on repeat while you sleep (amazing) or just play it while you are sitting (about 10 min long). The simplified instructions are:

Basic level: just listen
Intermediate level: listen with your body
Advanced level: listening with your body as a galaxy of light
(yes yes yes your body is so inherently joyful this actually happens more easily than you would think)

Restoration by Tom Kenyon
(follow the link through ~ you need to agree to the copyright & then you get a free download)

The Way Through: The Love Artist Guide To The Eclipse Season

“Remember that the heart is infinite as you play with the finite constructs of the mind level. As the frequencies emanating from Gaia support pure creator beingness, the responsibility becomes yours; how you direct that energy for both your personal path & your service work.

Practice responsible creation, & do not ruminate or stagnate in the old timeline energies as they drop away. Move forward with clarity, joy & an open heart because so much is becoming available to us”

~ Sandra Walter

Trust begets trust. Generosity begets generosity. Love begets love. Be the spark, especially when it’s dark.

~ Notes from the Universe

It’s a Sunday night as I sit down to write this, a time that has always felt inherently unstable to me since childhood. Simply, it was the bridge between the domestic & the wild. For the open-ended, non-regulated time of the weekend & the anxiety that came from being forced back into the form & constrictions of the school week.

I was just a kid. I didn’t think about it too much. I don’t which gave me more anxiety, the unstructured intimacy with my family (open-ended time with my parents who I didn’t really spend time with during the week) or the fact that I knew that the freedom wasn’t real, that sooner or later I would have to come back inside.

One of the many things we are learning at this precarious time
(or re-learning) is a new relationship with the wildness, a new translation of freedom, a new level of discomfort with the definition of what it means to be real & present.

We began this high intensity eclipse season last Friday, February 10 with a Penumbral Lunar Eclipse.

It opened the window for soul lessons that most of us would rather avoid, I’m not gonna pretty it up for you. In the next week,  as we prepare for the upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse (next Sunday, February 26) we have Mars in Aries kicking up a shit storm with both Pluto & Uranus & we will feel the need to bust up our prisons, whatever that may mean to us personally.

You may already be feeling it.

We will also have the (often) repressed (& burning with an irrepressible purifying rage) feminine libidinal power of the asteroid Lilith moving in Sagittarius this week. More fire. More kickass vibration. No you will not keep baby in the corner. EVER.

There is no avoiding it. The only way out is through. Ride it. Smile.

This energy definitely won’t work for you if you still believe that once opening up the wild  you are gonna have to go back inside
anytime soon, so don’t cling to old ideas of safety here.

Be brave.

You have to believe in the inherent safety of the wildness. You know, God & The Goddess,  The Truth of the Wildness.


In the precarious Goldilocks balance  where you are not trying too hard & not phoning it in or avoiding the only way through is to actually welcome the wildness in, & not resist, stand strong but be flexible (i.e. allow yourself to be permeable *ouch* & step right into the ocean or fire of your choice).

It may seem beyond you. It’s not.


The most important thing to remember is this:
The Mother is working.
She has your back.
She is working on something big & it takes a minute.

Do what you can to be calm & assured.

We are opening a whole new cycle of time. It does not feel “right” but don’t be fooled.

PLEASE REMEMBER THIS ~ most forms of anxiety are learnt & based on the experiences of others that have come before you.

The Fear that entered me on Sunday nights belonged to my parents,
who inherited their Fear from the world of their childhood & parents, who inherited from their parents, well, you know, you get the picture.

Aside from personal Fear ancestry, most anxiety is free-flowing ~
literal rivers of grief.  You can catch it on the subway, while you are dreaming, definitely on Facebook.

Make an effort to be clear.

I am not speaking about the state of the union but I am not NOT speaking about the state of the union. I am speaking about all of us.
All of us deeply within & all of us deeply together. 99% of the time the Fear & Anxiety you encounter does not belong to you.

You don’t need to own it but you can definitely help move it along
for everyone else.

Instructions below.

Yield to each thing that confronts you, triggers or redirects you
in a bright, loving, intentional way & stare into it, without fear as it takes form.

Let it form, even if it hurts. See it.

It is the resistance of allowing these huge changes to take form
that is keeping us from really, truly believing in the possibility of the transcendence of spirit.

Whoa. I’m going to say that again:

It is the resistance of allowing these huge changes to take form
that is keeping us from really, truly believing in the possibility of the transcendence of spirit.

Penetrate to the core of each thing you encounter.

Let your focus, love & concentration be so generous, it opens every obstacle.

Make a vow. Then make it tender. No beating yourself up. That same generosity for every obstacle ~ ummm probably that first obstacle is YOU.

Be a crucible of love.
You can be so much bigger.
You can.
We can.

The Evening Star: Release Yourself From Fear Of The Future

Fear is a natural reaction to moving closer to the truth ~ Pema Chodron

This morning I am a plane to Los Angeles, heading into a weekend full of oracle & unknowns, bang, bang, bang . . . AND THEN on Monday leaving early for Indonesia, where, to be honest, I barely have a whisper of what I am doing . . .

I am going to be honest with you. It feels CRAZY & VULNERABLE to be jumping right into the void right now.
Though some of you may think of me as a bit of a super human, I’m not actually.

I have had more than a few moments in the last couple of weeks, where I felt like collapsing, at least for a few heartbeats, tears were readily available . . 

But here is the thing, I have been trained to persevere in chaos. Finally after years of heavy lifting & practice, I have this second nature that sets in when things start flying around.

The voice inside:

“This is when you pray”
“Go deep, tether to the center of the earth”
“Keep your focus”
“On the other side of chaos is what you can’t see now”

And, most importantly: “Be there for others who can’t see yet.”

So here I am my beloveds. We got this & I got you.

In all your recalibrating in the last weeks, perhaps you have gazed up into the night sky for solace & noticed Venus burning so bright as the Evening Star.

She is so gorgeous.

Rising at dusk & staying with us in those  early evening hours, she continues.

She is at her brightest right now & she holds many keys to the gateway of what it means to ask for love & certainly what it means to receive.

We will have her leading us in this way  until March 15
when she will leave us to descend to the underworld & return as the Morning Star late March & bright through the Summer & into late Fall.

Throughout this month, Venus as the evening star will become slower, more direct & deliberate as she prepares for her descent. More mature & worldly wise, she has survived a rough patch of confrontation.

It is hard to stand front & center as a vessel of love, vulnerable, exposing her true self, sans masks & amour,
showing to the Gods & all of us what she is truly made of.

I feel her. And I feel all of you in your spectrum of the masculine & feminine, all of you lovers, in your compassion & feeling nature right now, with all the swells of extreme emotion out there.

As I said above, we got this & I got you.

Last year, I was in a extremely deep meditation & I received the epiphany that my heart was a pump, & MORE than just pumping my blood, it was a purifier for much emotional static, grief & anguish, loneliness & more . . . not just my own & not just my clients, but rather in the larger populace.

A pump that went into action when emotions rose to an unhealthy level, an automatic filter.

At first it was a bit overwhelming, but then I realized that this was being shown to me to wake me up, to give me a little bit more agency & a slight bit more control. So I could rest when I needed to. I could opt out from time to time.

I believe that many of you are filtering this energy as well.
Perhaps you already know it & already know some tricks.
In case, you are aware but somehow believe you need to be always at the ready . . . I am giving you permission to keep a practice that you can handle.

I am a bit repetitive here but please . . . ultra self-care.

This is what it means to be effective. This is what it means to be a leader. I need all of you in my crew so it would be lovely if you took care of yourselves.

I love you.
Hold your focus.
Be a reservoir of love.

This week I offered my Love Mastery Practice a one minute (or so) Meditation on Relieving Anxiety.  I want to gift it to you.

Replenish. Rebuild. Faith. Trust. Love.

Clear the path before your heart so the Divine can meet you there.

The Subtle Activism of the Moon

“When adversity hits you you think God has abandoned you. My God! What are you going to do? I tell you. Adversity only hits you in life to pull you out of attachment where you are confined”

~Yogi Bhajan

“People facing much harsher conditions than we are didn’t give up & that’s an important lesson”

~ Noam Chomsky

Here we are my angels ~ coming up for air  after an extra long dark moon this week . . .

I am not speaking {just} metaphorically ~ the term dark moon describes the period that the moon is invisible against the backdrop of the Sun in the sky.  It can be as simple as just the day
of the New Moon, but this week it was almost 3 days long.

I don’t think there is probably any sentient being on the planet that didn’t feel their share of darkness this week. It is interesting to realize we were missing that lunar glow as well: the mother, the continuity of nature’s cycles, beginning middle & end.

In the time before these things were documented in scientific form,
it appeared as if perhaps the moon was never coming back.

When the light returned, even the slightest glimmer *(which should be tomorrow night) it was perceived as a miracle.

The High Road: How To Bless Yourself This Full Moon

By now you have all successfully passed through the turbulent straits of this morning’s Cancer Full Moon. Hope you had a good breakfast because the waters are going to stay rocky for a few days.

The Wake of these times is wide.

The Cardinal Crossthat included that powerful moon this morning

*the perfect cross of 4 planets in the cardinal, aka seasonal signs, of Aries (spring), Cancer (summer), Libra (fall) & Capricorn (winter) ~ (Moon in Cancer, Jupiter in Libra, Uranus in Aries & Sun in Capricorn)

was the ignition of a hot wave of rebellion, sexual transformation, within & without, & overwhelming desire of  the soul for freedom that will carry us through to the end of  next September. Considering the current state of affairs on the planet right now, I am sure many of you are muttering some version of Thank God.

Thank God, indeed.

We have been given a huge opportunity to surf this massive wave of change & to ride it, hopefully synchronously & powerfully together.

Together being the operative term.

Now, more than ever before we need to be together, in love, on all levels. And although you know I believe Only Love is Real . . . .  I also believe that Love is Difficult.

No, not always. But when a crisis or several are in play, & the desire for sexual & spiritual expression & authenticity are ignited, the need for communication in Love is paramount.

And in order to balance love, freedom, spirit, rock & roll & sex . . . You gotta be centered.

A few days before the Full Moon (ooops, whaaaa, that was just this morninggggggg) Mercury went direct after being retrograde through the holidays (December 19 ~ January 8).

There are two options after a Mercury Retrograde:
~ do nothing (I’m tired)
~ or reassess, readjust plans & goals & move forward (I can do this)

It is best to be open-minded in this planning. If you think you have all the intel, especially if you think you are one of the only people who has the intel, it’s time for a little pause (or a lot), some self reflection. One of the keys to this transition is to realize that every single  person you are dealing with, from your lover to the guy in the car that just cut you off, is doing the same deep internal work AND it probably has nothing to do with you.

Yep, even your beloved’s inner landscape doesn’t include you all the time.

It’s ok. Let it go. It will give you more room to be yourself.

Another moment of gratitude. On my knees before the Jupiter/Uranus opposition, strong now (right in the middle of the Grand Cross this morning/today with the Full Moon) & in & out of play through October of this year

I will repeat: Love is at the middle of the revolution.

The Aries/Libra axis at play here is the very definition of Love ~  do I put myself first or do I put the collaboration with the other, at the highest meaning of that collaboration, first?

The answer is both.

A riddle: In what realms are You & the Lover one?

Answer: Sex & Spirit.

Once again, this is the arena for revolution. It is unfortunate that the skills  to participate in these arenas are rarely innate. Oh no, correction, they were potentially innate at birth when we parted the veil between dimension, perfectly one with every other member of humanity. For most of us, the road since birth has been one of obfuscation & denial of this birthright, mostly by others who had been equally denied (i.e. our parents, their parents, & their parents before them ~ compassion, compassion, forgiveness).

Many of you are already feeling the need for this healing & have taken steps to unform these cultural realities & peel away layers to find your original self. In the face of the current rigors, I am encouraging, in addition to your other practices, a simple meditation to tonify your Second Chakra, the Sex Chakra, all on your own.

Maybe not as much fun as working it out with someone else, but a lot easier to keep your focus. The payoff will be great, I promise.

It is important here to understand the relationship between The Second (Sex) Chakra &  The Sixth (Third Eye) Chakra.

This Sexual/Spiritual landscape is different for each of us, particularly depending on our gender identification. On the more feminine end of the spectrum, the 2nd Chakra works more intuitively. Those with a more feminine reality literally hold the doorway between life & death within our bodies. This threshold works as a magnet, drawing in energies & sensations. The more powerfully identified someone is with the feminine, the bigger the magnet. Sometimes it becomes hard  to differentiate, whose sensation & energy is whose.

On the more masculine end of the sexual field, the emphasis is on processing, creating, manifesting something with this incredible electric energy. Sometimes this innate desire to  collect & build
moves extremely quickly, particularly when protection & stability are at risk (like, um, NOW). This sense of urgency can lack finesse or subtlety.

I am sure this is all familiar, though gender assignation is obviously far more illusive than just the physicality of our bodies.

That said, the boot camp for today, in order to begin to bring
this beautiful energy into the top form necessary for these times, involves an intentional movement of Second Chakra energies
up into the Spiritual intuitive center of the Sixth (Third Eye) Chakra,
where that deep connection to another has the ability to grow in a more neutral, sophisticated, non-judgmental perspective.

You can still enjoy the body of course.

Actually the travel up the center line of the body, either the spine, central channel or chakra energy centers, is highly pleasureable.

For now, keep the intention. Keep your focus.

You can just begin practicing by imagining arousal & connection, locating it in your belly, (place your hands either on your belly or in front, parted about 5 inches apart) & playfully, with a spark of joy (again imagine if you are not feeling it), & then move the energy upward. Spend some time cultivating & enjoying the energy at your Third Eye too.

There are many more ways to cultivate this skill. Feel free to write me. I would be happy to be your guide. Who knew that getting through the needle eye of the Kali Yuga would be so intriguing?

(image: Jose Garcia Chibbaro)

No Apologies & No Bullshit: The Anti-Resolutions

New Year’s Resolutions.

Yep. We love them. We hate them. Full of expectation & self-doubt & a fussy negotiation with the now . . .  but what are you going to do. There are many that find this particular day of reckoning a fairy arbitrary portal of newness ~ after all we just passed into the light a mere 10 days ago, but however you look at,  with the seeds dreaming deep, deep, deep in the earth & people everywhere are craving a bright & shiny horizon, there is always time to start over . . 

I love to talk to the spirits when all is still & everyone is asleep but I also love love love to pray when everybody & their grandma is praying, like surfing a big wave. Why not? Let’s ride that new dawn. The hairs on my neck are standing up already.

This is the thing ~ the last 5 years (or more) have been the equivalent of putting everything you have: your life right now & all your past lives, your karma & ancestral trail, your beliefs, your dreams, your loves, your secrets, in high-speed blender & sometime ~ yes it is coming!!!! in 2017 when that blender is going to stop.

If you get quiet inside, you can feel it already.

The absolute only way to move forward is get excited.

What will be there when the wild ride stops? Who will we be?

Surprise. Magic. Perfect. Promise.

Here is your no-fail, no bullshit, crib sheet for New Year’s Anti~Resolutions.

I have posted them here for the last 3 years or so & I still hold to them. They are like my 6 Agreements. Like an onion skin, year after year they form my life, preparing for freedom:

1.  No more apologies.

I mean it. STOP. RIGHT. NOW. That thing you were doubting, that mistake you thought you made, that was you. There was a message, a story, a lesson there. Learn it.

2. No more lying.

Tell the truth. That thing that is hiding out in the shadows, that keeps you up at night ~ clean that shit up right now. There will be no more need for apology.

3. Be less available. 

(controversial I know, feel how much you resist that)

Who would miss you if you were gone? Who are your lovers? I know it’s kind of a maudlin parlor game to wonder who would come to your funeral but I mean it ~ take a moment to feel in your cells who would truly miss you if you disappeared. The juice of you. The truth of you. Let the rest of it go & see what it feels like.

4. No comparison.

“No one is superior, no one is inferior, but no one is equal either. People are simply unique, incomparable. You are you. I am I.”
~ Osho.

5. Stay in the wonder.

Stay in it. It is truly amazing, this life. Gratitude. Gratitude. Gratitude.

6. Be ferocious.

Be wild.  It suits you.

I feel better already.

(image: james mowry)

The Waning of Light, Standing Rock & Your Personal Waters

I consider every one of you medicine family, & in that community, I am sure there is not a heart out there that hasn’t been broken a hundred times over or more by the courage, persistence, vision & beauty of The Standing Rock Resistance Movement.

We are all so lucky to be born at a time when this example of ancient & yet so modern prayer is at the forefront of the global consciousness.

Thank you Water Protectors & all that have supported this prayer either in North Dakota or in their hearts.

I am deep in a project that will further unite our prayers in this regard ~ for surely the need for prayer & resistance & courage
is hardly over ~ but for today, in the light of this flickering,
mutable Super Moon (& as we approach the gorgeous gravitas of the Solstice) I would like to take the moment to speak of WATER IS LIFE as it resonates within our personal waters: blood, tears, sweat, emotions, connection.

In this age of social media (particularly in my enthusiastic method of sharing) I am sure it has not gone unnoticed that I went on an extraordinary journey to Alaska this Fall &, indeed, did fall in love.

It was lovely. My heart broke open in a million ways. It didn’t work out. No one’s fault, just the nature of things. Heart broke open more.

No need to explain, we have all been there.

The depths of my contemplation around this heartbreak, however, has coincided with the heightened awareness of my personal connection to the frontline at Standing Rock ~ medicine brothers & sisters waking up each day in the depths of that continuous prayer, not just for the easement of the pipeline & the protection of the water supply but in the deep prayer for the militarized police force
right in front of them daily, shining interrogation worthy lights on top of them, spraying them down with the very waters they were protecting in the freezing cold, blizzards on their way.

It is in honor of  this prayer for the transgressors, prayers for those oppressors we find ourselves up against, all of us, in a daily way,
that I present this newsletter in the face of this huge moon, full of illusion.

How is your heart broken today? What is the heart break that is touching  you the most deeply, intimately? Take a moment right now to peer into the separation between you & them. Feel the separation, the duality, the inconsolable otherness.

In your mind get on your knees in front of them.

A Gemini Full Moon can be a cluster fuck.

I do believe that every Zodiac sign is royal & perfect as it is, no exceptions.

It is only our human discomfort that a Moon or Astral aspect  is seen as bad luck.

This Full Moon upon us  is filled with what feels like way too much information & yet it the true potential is that of a psychic portal
with answers you seek right there in front of you, if you can quiet down your storm inside.

Take a look again at your personal heartbreak right now. What do you feel separate from? Where do you feel abandoned, without a tether. Where is it that you feel the most desire for connection.

Be clear. Write down what you need. Take your time to see it
clearly in front of you. Be aware of the Gemini confusion & ask for strength to streamline your prayers  IN THE LIGHT  of all the psychic downloads.

You can do it. I am here with you.

If we say “Water is Life” & we truly mean it, then we must respect these internal waters (blood, sweat, tears & what they carry, emotion the desire for connection & care) . . .  We must be wary of toxins, poisons & how we allow this internal ‘fracking’ of ourselves to take place.

When I was staring into my personal heartbreak the weekend the vets were arriving  at Standing Rock  & the December 5th eviction was looming, I was lucky enough to get  some divine counsel in  How to Deal with a Broken Heart:

1) Do not blame anyone for not being able to show up for love.
2) It is a sign of disrespect to make an  assumption about anyone else’s life, even if they appear evil & particularly if you know them well.
3) Compassion (for me this took the form of  an intentional Metta prayer every time I reeled & bucked & wanted to punish someone,
anyone, for my heartbreak ~ this prayer was specifically: May you be happy, May you be well, May you be safe, May you be peaceful & at ease).
4) I was also instructed to pray for everyone who were not able to show up for love & for the people who loved them (HUGE)

All of this went down internally in the face of watching those Water Protectors kneel with their smudge & feathers on the frontline & also a day later, watching the Veteran crew bow down in front of  Tribal Elders.

I will stop here. I love you. Please be in touch.

A Respite From Spiritual Paralysis: Neptune Goes Direct

The last time I wrote you, wow, the world looked totally different.

The power of our communal energy.

We all experienced that wave of disappointment, disillusionment, fear . .  wherever you were on that spectrum, we all were together, a tsunami of community. We are still in it. Some of us still blinky eyed.

Where do we go from here?

On Sunday, November 19, Neptune will go direct after being retrograde since June 13. What does that mean?

Here is a brief review of the retrograde phenomenon:

Retrograde is when a planet appears to be going backward due to the planet’s relationship with the Earth’s movement.

When a planet is retrograde it DOES NOT mean bad luck.

It only means that the planet does not operate in expected ways, & there are many curve balls, kinks in the system. I believe that the retrograde period with any planet is a time when things are slowed down & repeated three different ways (direct, retrograde & then direct again all over the same segment of your chart or life) SO THAT WE GO DEEPER, SO THAT WE UNDERSTAND IN A DIFFERENT WAY.

The Beloved is doing their best to show us something.

When I say direct, I mean in a forward, clear motion. Often when a planet is operating directly, we often take it for granted, things going as usual. Then suddenly, the planet stops in it’s tracks, the retrograde, & it turns around & deals with the same material, the same life issues, in unexpected, disorienting ways.

Sometimes we feel stuck. Sometimes we feel out of control. Sometimes we get tired of working on the same thing, over & over.

When the planet goes direct again, we are relieved. Yes. Questions are answered. Knots untied.

Flow is restored, & often in a very powerful way.

Back to Neptune:

Neptune is a slippery slope. On the one hand it is the sea in which we all swim together. It is the true home of “In Lak’ech” the traditional Mayan greeting, “I am another you.”

Oneness. A lack of otherness. A lack of duality.

In a Neptunian reality, the terms conditional & unconditional do not exist in terms of love.

There is only love.

Neptune is one of the outer planets. It was first discovered in 1846, not because they could see it ~ there were no telescopes sophisticated enough at that time, but there was evidence that Uranus, the planet of revolution & abrupt change, was being “tugged” off course by a large mass. Through mathematics & abstract calculations scientists were able to conceptualize Neptune.

I bring this up because these outer powerful  energies, intense spiritual energies that were discovered after the Industrial Age, are hard for us to absorb. They feel overwhelming, too big for our human existence.

We resist.

In that resistance, it is common to prefer the disturbed version of the planetary energy than the pure direct energy, to feel it is more natural no matter how many problems that incurs.

In other words, it is hard to be one with everyone, hard to live in that beautiful limitless psychic space of love.

It has somehow begun to feel unreasonable, perhaps even causing one to feel too fragile to live. We can sign up for the idea of it, but living it seems complicated at every turn.

Things are about to change here.

Not everything is easy. In fact, when things are difficult, we pay more attention. In the long run, we do it better because we had to try harder.

Symptoms of Neptune retrograde include (again, ending tomorrow):

 intensified substance addiction (including food, work & sex)

 taking on other people’s energies without realizing it (or being addicted to this kind of negative connection, reverse “In Lak’ech”)

 overwhelming delusional thoughts,

 living in hope & not in reality

 intense passivity & lethargy

It does not mean that the time has been wholly negative.

It is just that there may be  distinct possibility  of being TOO spiritually open & pourous, TOO sensitive, actually TOO intuitive.

Your psychic skin has been way too thin the last few months (do you think???) & as a matter of fact, YOUR psychic skin has been way too thin at the same time as EVERYONE else’s . . .

The positive side of this is that we have been touched by Grace  so deeply in the last months. The Grace of the Divine has been working on us in our seeming paralysis. We have been so sluggish, it grabbed hold of us, held onto us, imprinted in every cell.

Is this madness or salvation? It depends on how deeply you believe.

If you need help believing in a sense of Divine order at this chaotic &, some may say,troubled time in history, lean on me.

I am here. And I believe.

Neptune will stay direct until July 2017.

What you can expect in this time is a huge awakening ~ not in the paralyzing woo way that so many crave & almost nobody can handle
but in a way that can crystalize into new vision, new vision that can stand up to higher values & everything that a true, embodied experience of “In Lak’ech” ~ not just smooth talk, but deep listening,
respect in every transaction & walking your talk.

Do it now.

Turn around & act on  your lifetime knowledge of love as a higher force. Act on your vision.

Again, if you need more solid advice on how to change the world right now, give me a shout-out.

I am here & I believe.

(image: ana mendieta)

The Thinnest Veil of Love: Scorpio New Moon

Human is a blend of saint & soldier; this is a complete person. If you are not a soldier your sainthood will be kicked around. If you are only a soldier & not a saint, you will start kicking others around.

~ Yogi Bhajan

It is always important, in times like this  to remember that there are a million  love experiences everyday.

Yes. People love you. Maybe just not in the way you think. The way you expect.

And, of course, not only are people loving you, but the Beloved
is shining on you right now, so bright & strong & constant.

You can count on it.

Best you clear the way in front of you  & make some room for that love to arrive.

I know that it may be hard  to remember these things sometimes. My heart has been broken over & over again in the last months with what has been happening in Standing Rock. Yet one more situation where one is inspired to do what one can, where we are pushed to examine the extent of what we are physically capable of, how much we can go out of our comfort zone, how much we can truly understand another’s hardship, &, at least for me, how important it is to live as honorable a life as possible, the life that is right in front of me.

To walk tall, to love myself, to think myself worthy, to eat well, sleep well, speak well ~ of yourself, of others. How important it is to pray, to meditate, to listen, to receive.

In the light of the chaos & seeming darkness that has been swirling around, to merely sit with oneself, to merely love oneself, may feel frustrating or even powerless.

The desire to do, to fix, to somehow control heartbreak & disconnection can often feed the very stress response that causes much of the chaos & self-destructive behavior on the planet . . . 

It is important to take action, yes, but one must look at one’s motivations in “helping” ~ if the desire to help or fix  comes from a feeling of loss, grief or personal inadequacy, your actions may cause more confusion, more stress, or perhaps even hurt  the other.

I am speaking here more of our close relations than global ones, but it does help to consider this when you are feeling powerless about the larger events swirling around us.

Tomorrow (Sunday) is the Scorpio New Moon at 1:38 pm East Coast. It is the perfect time to take pause & make room for the Beloved to visit.

Today Venus squares Saturn, not the coziest of Venus transits. It is a lesson in the discipline of love: perhaps some hard lessons about boundaries & examining one’s intentions in asking for & receiving love.

This is an interesting thing to contemplate, that the urge to love, the desire to merge with another may have an ethic code. That merely having love in your heart does not ensure that your actions in riding this wave of open heartedness may always be appropriate, helpful or in sync with all those involved.

I am not implying that you limit the expression of  your heart, but rather that you cherish that expression so much that you value its power & worth that you practice impeccably. That self-care I referred to above. That you treat your ability to love as a precious gift & you make clarity & equanimity  a way of life.

That you pay attention. It is not always easy.

This is where the soldier in the saint soldier comes in. The discipline of love. Kinda PhD level. But to be that effective & capable with your love, is so worth it.

There is a famous quote:

Prayer is when you talk to God,
Meditation is when you listen to God.

On this weekend & into the beginning next week when the veil between the spirit realm is so thin ~  with the deep sage transparency of the New Moon, the whispers of the ancestors at Samhain & the Day of the Dead, it’s a really good time to listen.

Clear the way for some messages. Receive some otherworldly love. Soak it in.

Yes, pray. Yes, ask for help. Speak, express yourself if you need to. But do what you can to empty yourself. And listen. And listen more. Deep listening. Listening as if your life depended on it.

It makes a huge difference for all of us.

with Kathe Izzo